I have been feeling weird today; almost hollow. I considered writing a whole post about how much better things were when I was at WVU and how I missed having friends around.
Then, it happened. My whole life was summed up in a phone call from my mom. “Call me right back so I can see if this new phone works properly,” she said.
That’s me. I’m the person you call only to have some menial task fulfilled. I’m the person you call because you know I’ll be home with nothing else to do. This is what I am.
Excuse me while I go be emo. 
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I had a moment like that today when I got up. 0Jesse was cleaning and had the TV on the 80’s music channel - but the good stuff, not just the generic stuff like I hear all day at work.
I was fine until one particular song made me flash back to watching 120 Minute on MTV with the pals I had in Morgantown in the early 90s. Even with hindsight and knowing if we were in a room together now we’d likely be at each other’s throats I still had a visceral ache to be back in the middle of all that again. Helsinki Syndrome maybe?
Luckily I changed the channel just in time to see Frodo recovering in Rivendell and there went the rest of my day. LOTR, several loads of laundry, the closing Olympic ceremony, and lots of junk food all topped off by the season finale of Venture Bros. The only real difference between then and now is that then I had lots of people who were friends but didn’t wanna be, and now I have lots of people who aren’t friends and don’t wanna be. That and the drugs. Hooray for progress.
And if you’re gonna go Emo then take cutting in a new direction - other people.
I got over the emo before I had a chance to do any cutting. I guess we really can never go back….probably for the best. 
Your someone to me Jenn!!! I hate that its been so long since we have got to hang out, Hopefully soon we will be able to get together, I miss you =)
